What I Remember About That Night

What I Remember About That Night

Trigger warning: This article contains content involving sexual assault and rape.

What I Remember About That Night
Ben Waardenburg

I don’t remember exactly what time of year it was. I just remember it was too hot to wear long pants, so I wore cut offs. March, maybe?

I don’t remember much, actually. I remember the way the music vibrated in my chest, but I can’t remember the song that was playing. I remember the taste of lukewarm alcohol, and how it burned when it went down, but I don’t remember what exactly was in my cup. I remember being invisible in a room full of your friends, but I don’t remember any of their names.

It’s not alcohol that erased those memories. I was barely even drunk. It was a mixture of time and will that stole those moments from me, mercifully and gracefully.

The details are all fuzzy, but I remember the big stuff. I remember your damn Hawaiian shirt, the one that I detested. I remember that I loved you and that you didn’t love me. I remember being two drinks deep, but being positively drunk on your kisses. I remember letting you lead me into a bedroom and I remember the door locking behind us.

I remember saying, “No, I’m not ready” and I remember your voice whispering, “You have to at least let me do it for a minute.” I remember my hands being pinned above me as yours wandered to places I begged them not to go.

I remember your hot breath of my face as you whispered, “Don’t worry, I’m not going to rape you.” I remember thinking that maybe you didn’t quite know what that word meant. I remember that the guy you were in front of your friends wasn’t the guy you were behind closed doors. I remember feeling so frantic as I tried to wiggle out from under you. I remember you grabbing my hand and putting it in your boxers.

“I’m not ready.”

“I am.”

I remember your five o’clock shadow on my neck. I remember you finishing on the shirt I was wearing, the shirt I haven’t worn since. I remember feeling so relieved when you fell asleep on the other side of the bed, and I remember listening to your snores until the sun came up, because I was afraid to move and wake you. I remember sneaking out at six in the morning, running to my car without my shoes and without looking back. I remember ignoring my roommate when she asked how your party was. I remember standing in the shower for nearly an hour, letting the scalding water and salt cleanse my skin. I remember wondering if I’d ever feel clean again.

I remember walking into my classroom to take an exam an hour later, and praying that nobody looked at me. I remember the nice boy who walked me home, because he said I looked like I was having a bad day. I remember being a little afraid of him.

I remember that now, even three years later, I’ve never told a soul. I remember that I never will, because I followed you into that room, and I let you start kissing me. Because you didn’t violate me in the felonious sense, but I still remember how violated I’ve felt every day since.

I was assaulted and I remember everything. TC mark

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Aries

(March 21st to April 19th)

Paul Knowles (Born April 17th)

Wikimedia

Also know as “The Casanova Killer”, Knowles was a serial strangler convicted of killing at least 18 people in 1974, despite his claims to have murdered at least 35 individuals. Impulsive and hotheaded, Knowles committed all of his murders within one year. In typical Aries fashion, Knowles demonstrated a lot of tenacity and drive in the beginning of his killing career, but grew too sloppy and overly emotional to have the ability to carry out his crimes without being caught. He was arrested after attempting to crash his car through a police blockade, was chased on foot, and then was apprehended by a civilian with a shotgun.

Taurus

(April 20th to May 20th)

H. H. Holmes (Born May 7th)

Wikimedia

Leave it to a Taurus to go so over the top they create an actual Murder Castle. H. H. Holmes, sometimes referred to as “America’s First Serial Killer”, was a serial killer and con-artist in Chicago around the turn of the 19th Century. Overly ambitious, money hungry, and a bit on the dramatic side, Holmes would lure people into his murder castle (filled with secret passageways and hidden rooms) where they would never be heard from again and Holmes would attempt to collect their life insurance policies. Although he was only pinned to around 5 murders, many people suspect he actually killed closer to 200 people.

Gemini

(May 21st to June 21st)

Jeffrey Dahmer (Born May 21st)

Wikimedia

Jeffrey Dahmer was a serial killer who notoriously raped, murdered, and mutilated 17 men and boys from 1978 until his arrest in 1991. Dahmer was also a necrophile and cannibalized some of his victims, as well as preserved body parts and bones from the bodies of the young men who he murdered. Charming and personable, Dahmer was able to lure the young men back to his apartment and often convinced them to pose for photographs before the nightmare began. But the true shift in personality from a Gemini like Dahmer came in prison where he fully committed himself to Christianity and completely atoned for his crimes before being bludgeoned to death by another inmate. Pretty big personality shift from someone who kept an alter of body parts in their home as a shrine to themselves…

Cancer

(June 22nd to July 22nd)

Genene Jones (Born July 13th)

Biography

Genene Jones is a suspected serial killer thought to be responsible for the deaths of up to 60 infants while she was a licensed vocational nurse between the 1970s and 1980s. Cancers are known for their big hearts and wanting to take care of people, but Jones’ heroine complex took her to a murderous level. Jones would inject infants with lethal doses of succinylcholine in order to get them close to death with the intention of reviving them for praise and glory. After being convicted for the death of 15-month old Chelsea McClellan, she was sentenced to 99 years in prison.

Leo

(July 23rd to August 22nd)

John George Haigh (Born August 10th)

Murderpedia

Only a dramatic, attention seeking Leo would end up being someone known as “The Acid Bath Murderer.” John Haigh was a serial killer in England between 1943 and 1949. Haigh would bludgeon or shoot his victims before dousing their bodies in sulfuric acid in order to destroy the evidence. He would then cash in on their belongings by forging papers and selling what he could find for substantial amounts of money. But like Leos typically do, he became so excited about his sinister plan he misunderstood a key detail. Haigh believed that under corpus delicti if there was no body he couldn’t be convicted of a crime. This was not the case and there was enough evidence to sentence him to death by hanging in 1949.

Virgo

(August 23rd to September 22nd)

Rodney Alcala (Born August 23rd)

Wikimedia

Known as a “killing machine” by many, it’s no surprise that someone as methodical, careful, and tactical of a killer like Rodney Alcala is a Virgo. Alcala would kidnap victims after luring them by promising to take their photograph and enjoyed “toying” with them before they died. He would strangle them to the brink of death only to revive them and torture them all over again. Alcala was convicted and sentenced to death for 5 murders, but new victims continue to be revealed while he has been on death row. Hundreds of photographs of naked men and women were found in a storage locker in Seattle, and many are believed to be victims of Alcala. Some believe Alcala was responsible for upwards of 130 murders.

Libra

(September 23rd to October 22nd)

Patrick Kearney (Born September 24th)

Wikimedia

Patrick Kearney, also known as “The Freeway Killer”, is an American serial killer who hunted young men in gay bars and along freeways in California in the 1970s. Kearney would shoot his victims before dismembering and mutilating their bodies, sometimes even beating the corpses as a way to “release his rage.” Libras often have trouble with saying no and with their self-control, and Kearney took this to the extreme with his inability to satiate or control his murderous and necrophilic urges. However, also like Libras, Kearney was eager to come clean when caught and immediately confessed to all of his crimes in order to avoid the death penalty. He is currently serving 21 life sentences at California State Prison, Mule Creek.

Scorpio

(October 23rd to November 22nd)

Charles Manson (Born November 12th)

Murderpedia

Charismatic, captivating, and ultimately completely self-serving and terrifying when crossed, it’s no shock that one of the most notorious cult-leaders, Charles Manson, is a Scorpio. Leader of the infamous Mason Family, Charles Manson lead his “family” around California in the 1960s, and eventually ordered several gruesome murders between July and August of 1969. Manson believed in what he coined “Helter Skelter” which would be an apocalyptic race war. He believed the murders would spark this war. Since 1989, Manson has been single cell-housed in the Protective Housing Unit at California State Prison, Corcoran.

Sagittarius

(November 23rd to December 21st)

Ted Bundy (November 24th)

Wikimedia

Arguably one of the most famous serial killers to have ever existed, Ted Bundy was a rapist, necrophile, burglar, and murderer known to have killed at least 20 people during the 1970s. That being said, like most Sagittarians Bundy was prolific and grandiose, so it’s heavily suspected that he murdered far more people than he ever copped to. Sagittarians are also incredibly unpredictable, which is evidenced in the fact that Bundy did not have simply one method of murder. If he wanted to kill someone, he would find a way to do it. After escaping prison twice (again, so Sagittarius of him to not go down without a fight), Bundy was eventually captured and convicted in Florida, where he was eventually executed by lethal injection.

Capricorn

(December 22nd to January 20th)

William Bonin (Born January 8th)

Murderpedia

Described as “the most arch-evil person who ever existed”, William Bonin was a serial killer who preyed on and murdered 21 young boys and men between 1979 and 1980 in Southern California. Expertly careful and practical like a true Capricorn, Bonin created a perfect murder/torture venue in the back of his Ford Econoline van. Bonin removed all of the inside handles from all of the doors aside from the driver’s side in order to minimize the chance one of his victims could escape, and would kill them inside of the van before dumping their bodies along various highways in California. The only reason Bonin was caught was because someone heard him raping and strangling a 17-year-old boy in the back of the van, which lead to his arrest. Bonin was the first person to be executed by lethal injection in California in 1996.

Aquarius

(January 21st to February 18th)

Robert Hansen (Born February 15th)

YouTube

Detached, unpredictable, and incredibly secretive, Aquarians make the perfect serial killers. This is why it’s no surprise that someone who enjoyed literally hunting people was Aquarius Robert Hansen. Hansen would kidnap women and after raping them, set them loose in the Alaskan wilderness where he would hunt them down like animals. He’s known to have murdered 17 women, but is suspected of killing at least 30. As part of his plea bargain Hansen helped locate the bodies of other victims, and was eventually sentenced to 461 years in prison.

Pisces

(February 19th to March 20th)

John Wayne Gacy (Born March 17th)

Wikipedia

A Pisces is a natural dreamer and can get caught up in their own imagination, so it’s no surprise that Pogo the Clown aka: John Wayne Gacy ended up being the sinister side to this sign. Gacy raped, tortured, and murdered 33 young men and boys and buried many of them in the crawl space of his Norwood Park home. Like a highly emotional Pisces, when it was evident police were cornering in on him Gacy gave a rambling, drunken confession to his attorneys. Gacy remained on death row for 14 years before being executed in 1994. TC mark

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Aries

(March 21st to April 19th)

Paul Knowles (Born April 17th)

Wikimedia

Also know as “The Casanova Killer”, Knowles was a serial strangler convicted of killing at least 18 people in 1974, despite his claims to have murdered at least 35 individuals. Impulsive and hotheaded, Knowles committed all of his murders within one year. In typical Aries fashion, Knowles demonstrated a lot of tenacity and drive in the beginning of his killing career, but grew too sloppy and overly emotional to have the ability to carry out his crimes without being caught. He was arrested after attempting to crash his car through a police blockade, was chased on foot, and then was apprehended by a civilian with a shotgun.

Taurus

(April 20th to May 20th)

H. H. Holmes (Born May 7th)

Wikimedia

Leave it to a Taurus to go so over the top they create an actual Murder Castle. H. H. Holmes, sometimes referred to as “America’s First Serial Killer”, was a serial killer and con-artist in Chicago around the turn of the 19th Century. Overly ambitious, money hungry, and a bit on the dramatic side, Holmes would lure people into his murder castle (filled with secret passageways and hidden rooms) where they would never be heard from again and Holmes would attempt to collect their life insurance policies. Although he was only pinned to around 5 murders, many people suspect he actually killed closer to 200 people.

Gemini

(May 21st to June 21st)

Jeffrey Dahmer (Born May 21st)

Wikimedia

Jeffrey Dahmer was a serial killer who notoriously raped, murdered, and mutilated 17 men and boys from 1978 until his arrest in 1991. Dahmer was also a necrophile and cannibalized some of his victims, as well as preserved body parts and bones from the bodies of the young men who he murdered. Charming and personable, Dahmer was able to lure the young men back to his apartment and often convinced them to pose for photographs before the nightmare began. But the true shift in personality from a Gemini like Dahmer came in prison where he fully committed himself to Christianity and completely atoned for his crimes before being bludgeoned to death by another inmate. Pretty big personality shift from someone who kept an alter of body parts in their home as a shrine to themselves…

Cancer

(June 22nd to July 22nd)

Genene Jones (Born July 13th)

Biography

Genene Jones is a suspected serial killer thought to be responsible for the deaths of up to 60 infants while she was a licensed vocational nurse between the 1970s and 1980s. Cancers are known for their big hearts and wanting to take care of people, but Jones’ heroine complex took her to a murderous level. Jones would inject infants with lethal doses of succinylcholine in order to get them close to death with the intention of reviving them for praise and glory. After being convicted for the death of 15-month old Chelsea McClellan, she was sentenced to 99 years in prison.

Leo

(July 23rd to August 22nd)

John George Haigh (Born August 10th)

Murderpedia

Only a dramatic, attention seeking Leo would end up being someone known as “The Acid Bath Murderer.” John Haigh was a serial killer in England between 1943 and 1949. Haigh would bludgeon or shoot his victims before dousing their bodies in sulfuric acid in order to destroy the evidence. He would then cash in on their belongings by forging papers and selling what he could find for substantial amounts of money. But like Leos typically do, he became so excited about his sinister plan he misunderstood a key detail. Haigh believed that under corpus delicti if there was no body he couldn’t be convicted of a crime. This was not the case and there was enough evidence to sentence him to death by hanging in 1949.

Virgo

(August 23rd to September 22nd)

Rodney Alcala (Born August 23rd)

Wikimedia

Known as a “killing machine” by many, it’s no surprise that someone as methodical, careful, and tactical of a killer like Rodney Alcala is a Virgo. Alcala would kidnap victims after luring them by promising to take their photograph and enjoyed “toying” with them before they died. He would strangle them to the brink of death only to revive them and torture them all over again. Alcala was convicted and sentenced to death for 5 murders, but new victims continue to be revealed while he has been on death row. Hundreds of photographs of naked men and women were found in a storage locker in Seattle, and many are believed to be victims of Alcala. Some believe Alcala was responsible for upwards of 130 murders.

Libra

(September 23rd to October 22nd)

Patrick Kearney (Born September 24th)

Wikimedia

Patrick Kearney, also known as “The Freeway Killer”, is an American serial killer who hunted young men in gay bars and along freeways in California in the 1970s. Kearney would shoot his victims before dismembering and mutilating their bodies, sometimes even beating the corpses as a way to “release his rage.” Libras often have trouble with saying no and with their self-control, and Kearney took this to the extreme with his inability to satiate or control his murderous and necrophilic urges. However, also like Libras, Kearney was eager to come clean when caught and immediately confessed to all of his crimes in order to avoid the death penalty. He is currently serving 21 life sentences at California State Prison, Mule Creek.

Scorpio

(October 23rd to November 22nd)

Charles Manson (Born November 12th)

Murderpedia

Charismatic, captivating, and ultimately completely self-serving and terrifying when crossed, it’s no shock that one of the most notorious cult-leaders, Charles Manson, is a Scorpio. Leader of the infamous Mason Family, Charles Manson lead his “family” around California in the 1960s, and eventually ordered several gruesome murders between July and August of 1969. Manson believed in what he coined “Helter Skelter” which would be an apocalyptic race war. He believed the murders would spark this war. Since 1989, Manson has been single cell-housed in the Protective Housing Unit at California State Prison, Corcoran.

Sagittarius

(November 23rd to December 21st)

Ted Bundy (November 24th)

Wikimedia

Arguably one of the most famous serial killers to have ever existed, Ted Bundy was a rapist, necrophile, burglar, and murderer known to have killed at least 20 people during the 1970s. That being said, like most Sagittarians Bundy was prolific and grandiose, so it’s heavily suspected that he murdered far more people than he ever copped to. Sagittarians are also incredibly unpredictable, which is evidenced in the fact that Bundy did not have simply one method of murder. If he wanted to kill someone, he would find a way to do it. After escaping prison twice (again, so Sagittarius of him to not go down without a fight), Bundy was eventually captured and convicted in Florida, where he was eventually executed by lethal injection.

Capricorn

(December 22nd to January 20th)

William Bonin (Born January 8th)

Murderpedia

Described as “the most arch-evil person who ever existed”, William Bonin was a serial killer who preyed on and murdered 21 young boys and men between 1979 and 1980 in Southern California. Expertly careful and practical like a true Capricorn, Bonin created a perfect murder/torture venue in the back of his Ford Econoline van. Bonin removed all of the inside handles from all of the doors aside from the driver’s side in order to minimize the chance one of his victims could escape, and would kill them inside of the van before dumping their bodies along various highways in California. The only reason Bonin was caught was because someone heard him raping and strangling a 17-year-old boy in the back of the van, which lead to his arrest. Bonin was the first person to be executed by lethal injection in California in 1996.

Aquarius

(January 21st to February 18th)

Robert Hansen (Born February 15th)

YouTube

Detached, unpredictable, and incredibly secretive, Aquarians make the perfect serial killers. This is why it’s no surprise that someone who enjoyed literally hunting people was Aquarius Robert Hansen. Hansen would kidnap women and after raping them, set them loose in the Alaskan wilderness where he would hunt them down like animals. He’s known to have murdered 17 women, but is suspected of killing at least 30. As part of his plea bargain Hansen helped locate the bodies of other victims, and was eventually sentenced to 461 years in prison.

Pisces

(February 19th to March 20th)

John Wayne Gacy (Born March 17th)

Wikipedia

A Pisces is a natural dreamer and can get caught up in their own imagination, so it’s no surprise that Pogo the Clown aka: John Wayne Gacy ended up being the sinister side to this sign. Gacy raped, tortured, and murdered 33 young men and boys and buried many of them in the crawl space of his Norwood Park home. Like a highly emotional Pisces, when it was evident police were cornering in on him Gacy gave a rambling, drunken confession to his attorneys. Gacy remained on death row for 14 years before being executed in 1994. TC mark

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It's a breathtaking debut novel, but it's absolutely brutal and one of the most painful stories you'll read this year. But despite that, it's almost impossible to put down once you've started reading.

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A List Of People I Only Talk To When I’m Drunk

A List Of People I Only Talk To When I’m Drunk

Two friends talk over a multitude of alcoholic beverages and red bull
Thought Catalog

1. There’s a bartender who works at this place downtown I used to go to every Thursday. He has a beard and this thunderous laugh I could always hear from across the bar, and I only ever approached him when I was sloppy and courageous from one too many shots. He’d always pour me a drink — “On the house,” he’d say with a wink — and we’d talk until his attention was pulled toward another customer. I saw him around town during the day too, but we’d pretend like we didn’t recognize each other.

2. I once had a friend — if you could call him a friend — that I met at a Halloween party. He snaked his arm around my waist and offered me sips of his drink. “You’re seriously the best,” he told me right before I left. I ran into him a few days later and he wouldn’t even look at me. I thought he just forgot about me, but a few weeks later we saw each other at a house party and he wrapped me in a hug. “You’re here!” he said. “Let’s do shots.”

3. I met a guy through an acquaintance and we got along great. We always met up at bars on the weekend and took turn buying each other drinks. We’ve known each other for a while now, but he only ever texts me when he’s already hammered: “Come out tonight!” I only ever respond when I’m hammered, too.

4. I always run into the same girl when I’m out. Not every time, but a lot of times. By now we recognize each other, and we laugh about how funny it is that we always happen to go out on the same nights and end up at the same bars but never see each other anywhere else. I don’t really know a lot about her except that she likes tequila. She’s nice.

5. There’s this guy who broke my heart. We don’t talk anymore, but sometimes I send him messages when I get home at 4 a.m. and the room feels like it’s spinning and I am so, so sad for reasons I can’t comprehend. He never texts me back and I convince myself he changed his number.

6. I used to be really close to one girl. And when I say close, I mean I opened up every closet and let all my skeletons pour out. She did the same for me. Back then, I was surprised how easily I could get along with someone. Now we only speak with beers in hand about current events and all the fun we used to have.

7. Every now and then, I send a drunk “I miss you!” to friends I haven’t spoken to in months, years. Sometimes they respond, sometimes they don’t. Usually I don’t hear from them again. TC mark

A List Of People I Only Talk To When I’m Drunk

A List Of People I Only Talk To When I’m Drunk

Two friends talk over a multitude of alcoholic beverages and red bull
Thought Catalog

1. There’s a bartender who works at this place downtown I used to go to every Thursday. He has a beard and this thunderous laugh I could always hear from across the bar, and I only ever approached him when I was sloppy and courageous from one too many shots. He’d always pour me a drink — “On the house,” he’d say with a wink — and we’d talk until his attention was pulled toward another customer. I saw him around town during the day too, but we’d pretend like we didn’t recognize each other.

2. I once had a friend — if you could call him a friend — that I met at a Halloween party. He snaked his arm around my waist and offered me sips of his drink. “You’re seriously the best,” he told me right before I left. I ran into him a few days later and he wouldn’t even look at me. I thought he just forgot about me, but a few weeks later we saw each other at a house party and he wrapped me in a hug. “You’re here!” he said. “Let’s do shots.”

3. I met a guy through an acquaintance and we got along great. We always met up at bars on the weekend and took turn buying each other drinks. We’ve known each other for a while now, but he only ever texts me when he’s already hammered: “Come out tonight!” I only ever respond when I’m hammered, too.

4. I always run into the same girl when I’m out. Not every time, but a lot of times. By now we recognize each other, and we laugh about how funny it is that we always happen to go out on the same nights and end up at the same bars but never see each other anywhere else. I don’t really know a lot about her except that she likes tequila. She’s nice.

5. There’s this guy who broke my heart. We don’t talk anymore, but sometimes I send him messages when I get home at 4 a.m. and the room feels like it’s spinning and I am so, so sad for reasons I can’t comprehend. He never texts me back and I convince myself he changed his number.

6. I used to be really close to one girl. And when I say close, I mean I opened up every closet and let all my skeletons pour out. She did the same for me. Back then, I was surprised how easily I could get along with someone. Now we only speak with beers in hand about current events and all the fun we used to have.

7. Every now and then, I send a drunk “I miss you!” to friends I haven’t spoken to in months, years. Sometimes they respond, sometimes they don’t. Usually I don’t hear from them again. TC mark

A List Of People I Only Talk To When I’m Drunk

A List Of People I Only Talk To When I’m Drunk

Two friends talk over a multitude of alcoholic beverages and red bull
Thought Catalog

1. There’s a bartender who works at this place downtown I used to go to every Thursday. He has a beard and this thunderous laugh I could always hear from across the bar, and I only ever approached him when I was sloppy and courageous from one too many shots. He’d always pour me a drink — “On the house,” he’d say with a wink — and we’d talk until his attention was pulled toward another customer. I saw him around town during the day too, but we’d pretend like we didn’t recognize each other.

2. I once had a friend — if you could call him a friend — that I met at a Halloween party. He snaked his arm around my waist and offered me sips of his drink. “You’re seriously the best,” he told me right before I left. I ran into him a few days later and he wouldn’t even look at me. I thought he just forgot about me, but a few weeks later we saw each other at a house party and he wrapped me in a hug. “You’re here!” he said. “Let’s do shots.”

3. I met a guy through an acquaintance and we got along great. We always met up at bars on the weekend and took turn buying each other drinks. We’ve known each other for a while now, but he only ever texts me when he’s already hammered: “Come out tonight!” I only ever respond when I’m hammered, too.

4. I always run into the same girl when I’m out. Not every time, but a lot of times. By now we recognize each other, and we laugh about how funny it is that we always happen to go out on the same nights and end up at the same bars but never see each other anywhere else. I don’t really know a lot about her except that she likes tequila. She’s nice.

5. There’s this guy who broke my heart. We don’t talk anymore, but sometimes I send him messages when I get home at 4 a.m. and the room feels like it’s spinning and I am so, so sad for reasons I can’t comprehend. He never texts me back and I convince myself he changed his number.

6. I used to be really close to one girl. And when I say close, I mean I opened up every closet and let all my skeletons pour out. She did the same for me. Back then, I was surprised how easily I could get along with someone. Now we only speak with beers in hand about current events and all the fun we used to have.

7. Every now and then, I send a drunk “I miss you!” to friends I haven’t spoken to in months, years. Sometimes they respond, sometimes they don’t. Usually I don’t hear from them again. TC mark

A List Of People I Only Talk To When I’m Drunk

A List Of People I Only Talk To When I’m Drunk

Two friends talk over a multitude of alcoholic beverages and red bull
Thought Catalog

1. There’s a bartender who works at this place downtown I used to go to every Thursday. He has a beard and this thunderous laugh I could always hear from across the bar, and I only ever approached him when I was sloppy and courageous from one too many shots. He’d always pour me a drink — “On the house,” he’d say with a wink — and we’d talk until his attention was pulled toward another customer. I saw him around town during the day too, but we’d pretend like we didn’t recognize each other.

2. I once had a friend — if you could call him a friend — that I met at a Halloween party. He snaked his arm around my waist and offered me sips of his drink. “You’re seriously the best,” he told me right before I left. I ran into him a few days later and he wouldn’t even look at me. I thought he just forgot about me, but a few weeks later we saw each other at a house party and he wrapped me in a hug. “You’re here!” he said. “Let’s do shots.”

3. I met a guy through an acquaintance and we got along great. We always met up at bars on the weekend and took turn buying each other drinks. We’ve known each other for a while now, but he only ever texts me when he’s already hammered: “Come out tonight!” I only ever respond when I’m hammered, too.

4. I always run into the same girl when I’m out. Not every time, but a lot of times. By now we recognize each other, and we laugh about how funny it is that we always happen to go out on the same nights and end up at the same bars but never see each other anywhere else. I don’t really know a lot about her except that she likes tequila. She’s nice.

5. There’s this guy who broke my heart. We don’t talk anymore, but sometimes I send him messages when I get home at 4 a.m. and the room feels like it’s spinning and I am so, so sad for reasons I can’t comprehend. He never texts me back and I convince myself he changed his number.

6. I used to be really close to one girl. And when I say close, I mean I opened up every closet and let all my skeletons pour out. She did the same for me. Back then, I was surprised how easily I could get along with someone. Now we only speak with beers in hand about current events and all the fun we used to have.

7. Every now and then, I send a drunk “I miss you!” to friends I haven’t spoken to in months, years. Sometimes they respond, sometimes they don’t. Usually I don’t hear from them again. TC mark

A List Of People I Only Talk To When I’m Drunk

A List Of People I Only Talk To When I’m Drunk

Two friends talk over a multitude of alcoholic beverages and red bull
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1. There’s a bartender who works at this place downtown I used to go to every Thursday. He has a beard and this thunderous laugh I could always hear from across the bar, and I only ever approached him when I was sloppy and courageous from one too many shots. He’d always pour me a drink — “On the house,” he’d say with a wink — and we’d talk until his attention was pulled toward another customer. I saw him around town during the day too, but we’d pretend like we didn’t recognize each other.

2. I once had a friend — if you could call him a friend — that I met at a Halloween party. He snaked his arm around my waist and offered me sips of his drink. “You’re seriously the best,” he told me right before I left. I ran into him a few days later and he wouldn’t even look at me. I thought he just forgot about me, but a few weeks later we saw each other at a house party and he wrapped me in a hug. “You’re here!” he said. “Let’s do shots.”

3. I met a guy through an acquaintance and we got along great. We always met up at bars on the weekend and took turn buying each other drinks. We’ve known each other for a while now, but he only ever texts me when he’s already hammered: “Come out tonight!” I only ever respond when I’m hammered, too.

4. I always run into the same girl when I’m out. Not every time, but a lot of times. By now we recognize each other, and we laugh about how funny it is that we always happen to go out on the same nights and end up at the same bars but never see each other anywhere else. I don’t really know a lot about her except that she likes tequila. She’s nice.

5. There’s this guy who broke my heart. We don’t talk anymore, but sometimes I send him messages when I get home at 4 a.m. and the room feels like it’s spinning and I am so, so sad for reasons I can’t comprehend. He never texts me back and I convince myself he changed his number.

6. I used to be really close to one girl. And when I say close, I mean I opened up every closet and let all my skeletons pour out. She did the same for me. Back then, I was surprised how easily I could get along with someone. Now we only speak with beers in hand about current events and all the fun we used to have.

7. Every now and then, I send a drunk “I miss you!” to friends I haven’t spoken to in months, years. Sometimes they respond, sometimes they don’t. Usually I don’t hear from them again. TC mark